Friday, September 5, 2014



"Good morning world! Are you living behind a black veil? And in your veiled life how is that  hiding out thing, while trying to stay away from your problems situation working for you? 

In that introduction I am pleased to say  the blog today is another excerpt from my first novel called "AT CIRCLES BEND." 

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Yes again by popular request we are all once more opening the door, while peeking behind my leading lady’s  abaya veil shore to shore, as we again hear Angelica  saying….


“To me in leaving the United States, and in my brutal arriving over the seas, being forced to wear a blistering hot, black suffocating veil, ( called an abaya) I was not happy! 

Sadly in that transplantation of my body and heart  that seemed much like the strangling veil of love that I was hiding behind, as I found  Saudi Arabia was a secretive, closed, censored, bordered, gated country.

 Yes like love.....Saudi was blinding, concealed, recluse, and filled with many strange smells also daunting demands, with many more haunting hovering fears and hardships incased in her everyday unsettling sounds surrounding my crash landing that year.


Therefore, day dreaming in that land of sand was the only way to escape the torture that I found there. Hence to avoid my astonished crashes of life I slept all of the time in five alarm, alarming Arabia.


Understandably thinking that way I was not merry  in that country from day one, and every hour I similarly disliked my stupid, smart husband Conner even more for bringing me there. Yes I found his judgment questionable, and his excitement of living in hell annoying.


In that compliance  I furthermore hated listening to Conner’s underneath happy humming breath, and the insistent commanded call to life, or the lack of breath that simultaneously scared me to death.


Yes I thought the tomb and doom infernal black veil that entrapped me daily, that additionally brought me to my knees pleading in prayer.... that one day I would be set free…. was asphyxiating.

 In some of the similar ways finding no relief from my grief I felt my “entrapment and en-shroud-ment” had a lot in common with my husband who brought me to my knees hourly also needing prayer, as they were each linked to blowhards and hard knocks.


Thus in comparison, I contractually cringed every time I heard Conner saying how blasted happy he was to be living in hot hell, when I clearly was not!


Yes I further found my husband’s optimism curdled with his angry words that he hurled at me, and the black veil that entangled me, horrifying  and  distasteful. 

Sadly  just like water boarding torture coming from his forked tongue, like clockwork his insulting words and my offending life were driving me nuts. Yes in their twin irritations, they both broke the sound barrier and pierced my heart, as I found that even underneath a black veil there was no way to hide from the misery of a black heart, or to escape destiny.


Accordingly realizing that on earth there were no hiding places left, I realized if I was to survive the black veil of my melancholy , I would have to find a place in my soul and mind where I could hide. 

In doing that I already verified prayer was the only place I was not crying. So I prayed more and more every day and night that I could lift the veils clouding my sight….” Joslin Fitzgerald

 Yes dear reader friend Angelica was just beginning to find a way to lift her black veils, and to face her problems .

In that same thought I am praying that you too realize..... to survive underneath the black suffocating veils of your life,and to get through your day, that you too need to have more faith. "


Thank you for reading my blog please know that you have just been prayed for( as I am also asking that you are praying for me. ) In that prayer please additionally know that every word I am writing is Spirit sent in its heavenly direction leading you to....


Your Prayer of Salvation


Dear Jesus, I know I have done bad things in the past, and that I have done bad things today, and that I will continue to do bad things tomorrow as I am going along my way.  Yes that makes me a sinner, just like everyone else in the world every day, with all of the bad things I am doing and saying.


So, because I am a sinner I know I need a Savior....


Therefore my sins and my unhappiness are why I have come to you today, as I am silently praying, because I want to be eternally happy, and I need to be forever saved.


In saying that Jesus, I believe that you were born on Christmas Day.  I believe Jesus, that you lived a perfect life that is written down in the Bible to teach me what is wrong, and show me what is right. And I believe Jesus, in your love for me that you died on the Cross to save me from all of my sins day and night. Yes Jesus I believe you died, and defeated the grave as you arose from the dead on the third day. Yes I believe you are Alive forevermore and that you are living inside my heart and soul eternally night and day!


Thus in believing Jesus, you are the Son of God I am asking for your forgiveness for all my sins that I know, and those I do not know that I have committed, including the ones that I will continue to daily wallow in, as I claim in Your Eternal scriptural promise in the name of the Father, Son and Holy Spirit that I am now going to heaven.


Yes I claim in my new faith this very Minute that I am saved, because you died for me on the Cross, and in your arising on the third day, I know I  will not go to my endless grave. In that statement that just saved my life Thank you Jesus, I am now whole since the Holy Spirit lives within my soul!


Therefore in this prayer I believe that I am born again into heavens sight, and in your Biblical Promise of salvation written in the scriptures I have received everlasting life! Thus as I am asking you to change my blind darkness to guiding light you are forever my Savior, Jesus Christ.




Absolutely I pray that you have accepted Jesus Christ as your eternal guiding light, and your Savior today. I know I may never meet you here on earth as we are roaming, but if you truly prayed your prayer, to Jesus requesting forgiveness of your sins, and asking for your salvation you are right now this second saved. And I will see you when we go Away back home!


In saying that I also thank you for sharing in my thoughts and writing as we are going along our way as you are a huge part of my blogs heart.



Therefore in the things that I am sharing I am also honored to share my books with you too as Happily the FIRST contest for my company with our FREE GIVE AWAY IS OVER. My winner has excitedly been notified and accepted her present. BUT, DONT DESPAIR, BECAUSE ANOTHER READER APPRECIATION CONTEST HAS JUST STARTED!


Happily the new contest will end the last of December 2014, Yes due to the slower than expected releases of my 4 new  books coming this year I have increased the give away. To that end the prize will now be an autographed copy of my FIRST CHILDRENS BOOK called  "AN ESCAPING PRINCESS AND A RUNAWAY  PRINCE." AND an autograhed copy of my SECOND children’s book called “A KUTE KARING KIDS KLUB” Remember All readers who previously entered, previewed, and reviewed, my books in the first contest are in this contest too.


So, to join them for the rest of the excitement  this  year entering is EASY. Just click on the TOP OF MY BLOG that says READER APPRECIATION to find MY HEART that will take you to more information OR go to my web site from here.


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Thank you also for your prayers and support that you are giving me daily. Please know that all of your sweet encouraging words and sweet emails are Uplifting my life, and my writing, as I too am praying for You while going along my Mary way.

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