Wednesday, June 25, 2014

ENTRAPMENT


Good morning world have you ever thought about the word entrapment. In that consideration have you ever noticed how certain words come your way during your day? And in their arriving have you ever seen how those words coming to you stay with you all day through as they  rearrange your time, and maybe even torture your mind.


In that tortured reassignment  of time have you ever seen how those haunting words help you get through some of the things that you're feeling. Have you ever witnessed how those taunting words help you handle some of the things that you are dealing with?  


Well yesterday one such word came to me that started me thinking about other things, and that word was the familiar word of Entrapment.


 So instantly the word entrapment started me thinking about what it was to be entrapped, as I realized that there are a lot of ways in life that we feel trapped.

 

Continuing those thoughts some of us feel like we are entrapped in bad marriages or worse yet we are trapped in disabling toxic relationships where the people we  trusted have not turned out to be what we wanted them to be. Some of us feel entrapped in bad jobs that have also squashed our dreams. 


Some of us even feel entrapped in our finances that are silently taking away everything. And sadly most of us feel entrapped in our flaws that keep us from being who we want to be. 

Additionaly  some of us feel entrapped in the things that we are doing that are keeping us from being free. And lastly in our entrapment some of us are trapped in the things that we are saying or have already said, as people and events are causing us to lose our cool, loose our tempers, loose our minds, and loose our heads!

 

Yes indeed there are definitely a lot of ways to feel entrapped as we are going through our days. Hence when we feel trapped like rats on a sinking ship, as we experience the word entrapment in our lives it is only natural to search for our way out!

 

Yes I agree being entrapped can lead to misery! Happily, however as bad as being entrapped is.... there is something good about entrapment too, because in a trap there is always the way out. 


Therefore looking for the exits door in your traps there are causes and effects as we learn our tricky life lessons that will procure our release.

 

So in seeking the answers to your entrapments have you thought about how you're going to get out of your traps? Yes indeed in the traps and entrapments where we find ourselves 

how are you going to find release?

 How are you going to be set free?

 

And in the freedom you are seeking who holds the key . Yes who can define entrapment. And who will end your misery?

 

In that thought my leading lady Angelica has also been thinking the same things. So please join me for another quote from my first book "AT CIRCLES BEND" (and don't forget you can purchase it here so you won’t miss out on anything.)


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Yes join me once more behind her Paynefull door as we once again hear my leading lady Angelica Payne saying…..

 

“Accordingly during that trip as we moved from the United States to Saudi Arabia I felt in that entrapment that I had gone from heaven to hell. In that less than ideal transference I added the words “day dream, nightmare, learned and entrapment ” to my life list of quarrelsome words I had not liked; yet had to experience for me to blossom and grow.


Sadly in that transition going from childhood into what ever stage I was now in, I learned very quickly from our move overseas, I liked day dreaming. On the other hand in the entrapment that reality was bringing I had not liked learning the life lessons found in those nightmares.

 

Sadly, however in that deliberation, I feared it had not mattered what I liked or wanted, and that I had many more day dreams, attached to screaming tests with instructions coming. 

No, I would not like learning any of my life lessons, as I further sensed a whole lot more entrapment with nightmares and Payne was coming my way. Yes feeling trapped everyday searching for a way out I also feared I would never learn my lessons well enough to endure that pain.

 

On the other side of the magic wand, however I felt all those fabulous experiences made life so much better, but simultaneously I feared that restless reality was excruciatingly unbearable for me as I turned away from the States.


Of course  I was even more concerned in that turn that I was totally unprepared to face living in the ghettos of old Saudi. Therefore fleeing Arabia in dreams and night screams was easier with good memories I left behind.

 

Thus In fear laced with struggling faith, the trip was more than I Ever anticipated with experiences so new I had a hard time verbalizing what I was seeing, doing and feeling. Accordingly  in my lack of definition leaving what I had known for the unknown trapped in between a rock and a hard place was equally as hard. 


So, in that retracted review of what I learned, and what I refused to face I realized I had not known anything yet. And in the entrapment of my heart I feared that there was no way to describe what I had not learned or to define what I was hiding away from !

 

Understandably in that same thought, I reluctantly discovered during that time, leaving the mysticism of the past behind was not easy, since that consecutively meant a loss of excitement, civilization, and even a loss of my mind. 


Therefore, I concluded all those intersecting feelings, inequitably started at the beginning of my physical detention, with mental retardation, connected to realities retention, as I eventually turned loose of what I rightfully perceived was the outer limits of social realms, decency..... and faced what I feared was the beginning of my insanity.

 

Observably in that reinvented discovery of a million undefined ways to learn life lectures I found satisfaction in travel, and gratification in physical relocation, with mental transportation unquestionably commenced all of my unnatural fears of unknown acknowledgements. Yes that move was the start or stop of my heart, and as faced the day.... I had not known which that was . 


Hence just as a blind moth I once again found no exit in my entrapment as I was heading toward Saudi Arabia’s flame.

 

Accordingly as I was facing the truth that once a moth was entrapped in a flame, or a bug was wedged in a webbed cocoon, or a person  lost sight of what was in a name, or one no longer relied on faith,  I realized if I was ever going to find the way out I needed to first find the way to be released. 


In that thought I had always known that in life once I was entrapped that only Jesus held the key. 


So in that thought wanting to be set free from all of the fear and Payne in my name that was tormenting me hourly, I once again bowed my head and bent my knee!” Joslin Fitzgerald

 

Thank you for once again sharing in the writing from my first book AT CIRCLES BEND please see you can order it here so you won’t miss out on what I am not sharing.



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Additionally please know that everything I write I am doing in testimony that JESUS LOVES YOU and He wants you to live for eternity. Yes I believe that witness is now happily taking you to your heavenly destination found in…..  

 

Your Prayer of Salvation....

 

Dear Jesus, I know I have done bad things in the past, and that I have done bad things today, and that I will continue to do bad things tomorrow as I am going along my way.  Yes that makes me a sinner, just like everyone else in the world every day, with all of the bad things I am doing and saying.

 

So, because I am a sinner I know I need a Savior....

 

Therefore my sins and my unhappiness are why I have come to you today, as I am silently praying, because I want to be eternally happy, and I need to be forever saved.

 

In saying that Jesus, I believe that you were born on Christmas Day.  I believe Jesus, that you lived a perfect life that is written down in the Bible to teach me what is wrong, and show me what is right. And I believe Jesus, in your love for me that you died on the Cross to save me from all of my sins day and night. Yes Jesus I believe you died, and defeated the grave as you arose from the dead on the third day. Yes I believe you are Alive forevermore and that you are living inside my heart and soul eternally night and day!

 

Thus in believing Jesus, you are the Son of God I am asking for your forgiveness for all my sins that I know, and those I do not know that I have committed, including the ones that I will continue to daily wallow in, as I claim in Your Eternal scriptural promise in the name of the Father, Son and Holy Spirit that I am now going to heaven.

 

Yes I claim in my new faith this very Minute that I am saved, because you died for me on the Cross, and in your arising on the third day, I know I  will not go to my endless grave. In that statement that just saved my life Thank you Jesus, I am now whole since the Holy Spirit lives within my soul!

 

Therefore in this prayer I believe that I am born again into heavens sight, and in your Biblical Promise of salvation written in the scriptures I have received everlasting life! Thus as I am asking you to change my blind darkness to guiding light you are forever my Savior, Jesus Christ.

 

Amen

 

Absolutely I pray that you have accepted Jesus Christ as your eternal guiding light, and your Savior today. I know I may never meet you here on earth as we are roaming, but if you truly prayed your prayer, to Jesus requesting forgiveness of your sins, and asking for your salvation you are right now this second saved. And I will see you when we go Away back home!

 

In saying that I also thank you for sharing in my thoughts and writing as we are going along our way as you are a huge part of my blogs heart.

 

Therefore in the things that I am sharing I am also honored to share my books with you too as Happily the FIRST contest for my company with our FREE GIVE AWAY IS OVER. My winner has excitedly been notified and accepted her prize . BUT, DONT DESPAIR, BECAUSE ANOTHER READER APPRECIATION CONTEST HAS JUST STARTED!

 

Yes the new contest will end the last of December 2014, and due to the slow releases of my new books that has caused an extension for the contest closing date the prize will Now be an autographed copy of my FIRST CHILDRENS BOOK called  "AN ESCAPING PRINCESS AND A RUNAWAY  PRINCE." AND my SECOND Childrens book called "A KUTE KARING KIDS KLUB".....Remember All readers who previously entered, previewed, and reviewed, my books in the first contest are in this contest too.

 

So, to join them for the rest of the fun this year entering is EASY. Just click on the TOP OF MY BLOG that says READER APPRECIATION to find MY HEART that will take you to more information OR go to my web site from here.


www.circleslegacypublishing.com 


To find out more ways on how you too can join in the fun.

 

To reach me: jjoslin3@att.net

 

To order my books from Amazon:http://amzn.to/1auDxiO

 

To access my web site:www.circleslegacypublishing.com

 

Thank you also for your prayers and support that you are giving me daily. Please know that all of your sweet encouraging words and sweet emails are Uplifting my life, and my writing, as I too am praying for You while going along my Mary way.

Friday, June 20, 2014

SURVIVAL


Good morning world. Well I am back and after what seems like forever, Happily my computer problems seem to be solved. So I was wondering as we are all trying to survive our irritations in life, 

what Do you do when problems plague you? 


How do you handle the annoyances in your life? How do you handle your temper tantrums? Well if you are like me you might not handle them easily, and that thought brings me to another day when I get to share my first book 

"AT CIRCLES BEND" with you.

 

In saying that, this book is all about bends. It is about getting bent around, falling down, getting back up, and then being bent out of shape once again. This book is about breaking or bending. And it is also about wanting to go straight forward as life instead twists you and takes you around the bend. 

Yes in our life as we are trying to find our way, while our hours are taking us one direction ... when we want to go another, this book is about the drama of the heart. This book is further about celebrations, traumas, and disillusionments of time while we struggle to get through those decisions that keep a heart in tact, or breaks us a part.

Therefore saying that this book is about survival found in opening and closing doors, as we discover  the characters going around the circles bend seeking  happiness and endurance . 


Yes as the Payne's endure abuse this reflective “take a look at your own life book” is about trying to survive "your" computer crashes.

 

Accordingly in  those rewarding yet upsetting confirmations and observations, my leading lady Angelica like many of you, has found herself renewed, yet constantly devastated by ongoing calamities. Sadly, newly married she like the rest of us sees herself sucker punched, as a blend of some kind of a pathetic martyr and hopeful heroine.  


Discernibly in that tragic familiar misery, and roulette gun spin of pessimism or optimism in her move located over the oceans, Angelica is frantically dealing with the Islamic culture, while living with her husband and new born baby in an ancient Saudi Arabian ghetto. 



In those thoughts please join me for another quote from my book 

"AT CIRCLES BEND," You can Click here to order it, 


http://amzn.to/1auDxiO


that way you won’t miss out on any of the juicy parts I am Not sharing as we again hear my leading lady Angelica saying....


“In that similar nagging instability that accompanied me, I was precariously perched between exhilaration, and apprehension, combined with exultation and terror. Therefore on my pirate ship of indecision where I walked the plank to my demise many times, I discovered a misstep could be fatal. 

Yes indeed on the other side of the fairy tale propaganda in the same uneasy equilibrium, as I then swayed uncomfortably, I additionally adored happily playing inside my make believe doll houses of my childhood’s mind trying to have life be what I needed it to become. 


Yet, being transferred abruptly  from America to Arabia living overseas and then struggling with what life was, the spotlighted damsel in distress discovered no exit as my splash into reality still seemed eminent, and survival questionable .

 

Happily, however I would have thought about that another day, and as I ignored that poor thought process during that transient time the innocent Tinkerbelle fairy inside of me (living in a fantasy world of make believe) found temporary fulfillment in my insanity. Yes as I started to fly I looked forward to many years of exciting explorations. 


Understandably I similarly looked onward to an alluring provocation drive to go back in time to my many exotic histories, including flipping back in my brain, as I had flown away into my past.

 

Evidentially that creativity of my “mind altering” first  fit beautifully into my life of kings and queens where I learned to side step my problems and hide away in my safe palace of sand castles. 


Therefore I learned early on how to dodge the ugly witches and loud dislodged dragons that sadly had become tangible in my reality, and very visible in my vulnerable world. Yes as I attended life’s school, I majored in Princess 101, but failed the classes.

Nevertheless  in spite of everything (especially me being a poor student ,) with our touch down onto foreign soil, trying to survive, I learned many life lessons.

 

In that list of what I learned and what I needed to practice, I learned to conquer fear with faith. I learned how to pray harder every day. I learned how to enjoy things that at first seemed scary. And daily I learned patience, as I waited for all good things, including my boat shipment furniture, to come back my way. 


Similarly  in all of that I further learned that our first mystical wand trip was magical, like all good fairy tales should have been, and as I immensely enjoyed every new taste, smell, sight also sound I found on that first of many contentious carpet rides of life , that to endure the crashes in my life I needed to learn a lot more. 


Therefore I needed more intelligence with much more faith to survive than I ever had before....

as I closed off the past, 

opening up that new door !" Joslin Fitzgerald 


Thank you for joining me for another flashback into Angelica's life. 



To order her book  called 

"AT CIRCLES BEND" click here


 http://amzn.to/1auDxiO


Thank you also for sharing my book, and Please know everything I am writing is a part of my witness "That a life with Jesus is not only survivable in this lifetime, but Jesus is  all you Ever need to live eternally." 

Happily that testimony of love and 

life everlasting is now leading you to.....


Your Prayer of Salvation

 

Dear Jesus, I know I have done bad things in the past, and that I have done bad things today, and that I will continue to do bad things tomorrow as I am going along my way.  Yes that makes me a sinner, just like everyone else in the world every day, with all of the bad things I am doing and saying.

 

So, because I am a sinner I know I need a Savior....

 

Therefore my sins and my unhappiness are why I have come to you today, as I am silently praying, because I want to be eternally happy, and I need to be forever saved.

 

In saying that Jesus, I believe that you were born on Christmas Day.  I believe Jesus, that you lived a perfect life that is written down in the Bible to teach me what is wrong, and show me what is right. And I believe Jesus, in your love for me that you died on the Cross to save me from all of my sins day and night. Yes Jesus I believe you died, and defeated the grave as you arose from the dead on the third day. Yes I believe you are Alive forevermore and that you are living inside my heart and soul eternally night and day!

 

Thus in believing Jesus, you are the Son of God I am asking for your forgiveness for all my sins that I know, and those I do not know that I have committed, including the ones that I will continue to daily wallow in, as I claim in Your Eternal scriptural promise in the name of the Father, Son and Holy Spirit that I am now going to heaven.

 

Yes I claim in my new faith this very Minute that I am saved, because you died for me on the Cross, and in your arising on the third day, I know I  will not go to my endless grave. In that statement that just saved my life Thank you Jesus, I am now whole since the Holy Spirit lives within my soul!

 

Therefore in this prayer I believe that I am born again into heavens sight, and in your Biblical Promise of salvation written in the scriptures I have received everlasting life! Thus as I am asking you to change my blind darkness to guiding light you are forever my Savior, Jesus Christ.

 

Amen

 

Absolutely I pray that you have accepted Jesus Christ as your eternal guiding light, and your Savior today. I know I may never meet you here on earth as we are roaming, but if you truly prayed your prayer, to Jesus requesting forgiveness of your sins, and asking for your salvation you are right now this second saved. And I will see you when we go Away back home!

 

In saying that I also thank you for sharing in my thoughts and writing as we are going along our way as you are a huge part of my blogs heart.

 

Therefore in the things that I am sharing I am also honored to share my books with you too as Happily the FIRST contest for my company with our FREE GIVE AWAY IS OVER. My winner has excitedly been notified and accepted 3 of my AUTOGRAPHED BOOKS as her present. BUT, DONT DESPAIR, BECAUSE ANOTHER READER APPRECIATION CONTEST HAS JUST STARTED!

 

Yes the new contest will end the last of August 2014, and the prize will be an autographed copy of my FIRST CHILDRENS BOOK called  "AN ESCAPING PRINCESS AND A RUNAWAY  PRINCE." Remember All readers who previously entered, previewed, and reviewed, my books in the first contest are in this contest too.

 

So, to join them for the rest of the fun next year entering is EASY. Just click on the TOP OF MY BLOG that says READER APPRECIATION to find MY HEART that will take you to more information OR go to my web site from here.

www.circleslegacypublishing.com To find out more information on how you too can join in the fun.

 

To reach me: jjoslin3@att.net

 

To order my books from Amazon:http://amzn.to/1auDxiO

 

To access my web site:www.circleslegacypublishing.com

 

Thank you also for your prayers and support that you are giving me daily. Please know that all of your sweet encouraging words and sweet emails are Uplifting my life, and my writing, as I too am praying for You while going along my Mary way.











Wednesday, June 4, 2014

MIRAGE

“Good morning world, so as the earth turns how are you doing? Well in that mirage thought of worse and best we all are doing well in some way or the other, because as you are reading my blog you are at least breathing. You are also thinking, and since this is a Christian blog you are being comforted, inspired, and guided.


On the other hand even though things are going well for you…. many out there are facing a lot of problems.

 

Ok to be clear we are All facing problems tears, and fears, because none of us will ever go through our years without drama or trauma. Including my leading lady who is still telling her story as it starts in my first book called AT CIRCLES BEND.


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 Yes Angelica is just like you as she too following her mirage is looking for the best that is yet to come walking through her many deserts reaching out to her mirage of happiness.  Yes Angelica has always been looking for the best, yet only finding a vast wasteland in her marriage she has realized the best had yet to come!

 

In these upsetting confirmations and observations, looking for the best that is coming, (but has yet to arrive,) Angelica like many of you, has found herself devastated by ongoing calamities, and newly married she sees herself sucker punched, as a blend of some kind of a pathetic martyr and hopeful heroine. 


In those reflections please join me for another sneak peek into my first novel as we again find Angelica relating to your life, while she is talking to you about her days, like you are her best friend or therapist....as she is saying.

 

“Surprisingly in that path leaving America behind waking up and realizing I was in a mirage living in the underworld hole ghetto of Saudi Arabia I discovered myself hypnotized by the heartburn of trials and paralyzed by indigestion of tribulation. Clearly in the middle of that familiar phrase, thousands of miles away from the heart of love, and the hearth of home, I was beginning to fine tune my future. 


Yes I already started quelling anxiety of my past and present with prayer while I tried to replace paralyzed disquietude fear with abiding faith knowing the best was coming.

 Yet not being able to catch my mirage I was always wondering where that best was, who that best would be with, and when that best would be coming. Needless to say facing life I was getting very impatient waiting for the best to arrive!

 

Understandably during all of that unsettled time, I realized I was overwhelmed by everything and I was extremely ill-prepared to face anything. Justifiably I consecutively comprehended nobody but “me, myself and I” really cared about any of those concerns.

Yes looking for the best yet finding the worse with or without my stone thrown permission, I had unsuspectingly heralded in the first of hundreds of trips yet to come. Therefore just by taking my latest breath I realized that I ushered in a million more daydreams, with night screams yet to be.

 

So I was resigned to anguish fate that everything would be best, good and bad, as everything else early or late happy or sad stayed in my backed up mind. 

I had, however known even though we arrived in that crash course, taking those crash courses in life that those problems, even though over on premier days trumpeted in more celebrations or tribulations to come. 


Reasonably I testified reaching out to the mirage called happiness on that extremely hard landing, to find the best in life, that prayer would always be the ultimate safety net for me. Yes I had always known there was only one way to catch a rainbow, or to stop a mirage from blowing away.And to find the best that was yet to come, faith in Jesus guiding me to the best yet to be day or night would always have been my prerequisite to survival.” Joslin Fitzgerald

Thank you for joining me in another quote from my book at Circles BEND to order it and enjoy the parts I am leaving out please click here


To order my books from Amazon:http://amzn.to/1auDxiO


Please know everything that I am humbly writing I am doing as I share my love for Jesus and Jesus love for you that has been leading to my witness 

taking you to....

 

Your Prayer of Salvation

 

Dear Jesus, I know I have done bad things in the past, and that I have done bad things today, and that I will continue to do bad things tomorrow as I am going along my way.  Yes that makes me a sinner, just like everyone else in the world every day, with all of the bad things I am doing and saying.

 

So, because I am a sinner I know I need a Savior....

 

Therefore my sins and my unhappiness are why I have come to you today, as I am silently praying, because I want to be eternally happy, and I need to be forever saved.

 

In saying that Jesus, I believe that you were born on Christmas Day.  I believe Jesus, that you lived a perfect life that is written down in the Bible to teach me what is wrong, and show me what is right. And I believe Jesus, in your love for me that you died on the Cross to save me from all of my sins day and night. Yes Jesus I believe you died, and defeated the grave as you arose from the dead on the third day. Yes I believe you are Alive forevermore and that you are living inside my heart and soul eternally night and day!

 

Thus in believing Jesus, you are the Son of God I am asking for your forgiveness for all my sins that I know, and those I do not know that I have committed, including the ones that I will continue to daily wallow in, as I claim in Your Eternal scriptural promise in the name of the Father, Son and Holy Spirit that I am now going to heaven.

 

Yes I claim in my new faith this very Minute that I am saved, because you died for me on the Cross, and in your arising on the third day, I know I  will not go to my endless grave. In that statement that just saved my life Thank you Jesus, I am now whole since the Holy Spirit lives within my soul!

 

Therefore in this prayer I believe that I am born again into heavens sight, and in your Biblical Promise of salvation written in the scriptures I have received everlasting life! Thus as I am asking you to change my blind darkness to guiding light you are forever my Savior, Jesus Christ.

 

Amen

 

Absolutely I pray that you have accepted Jesus Christ as your eternal guiding light, and your Savior today. I know I may never meet you here on earth as we are roaming, but if you truly prayed your prayer, to Jesus requesting forgiveness of your sins, and asking for your salvation you are right now this second saved. And I will see you when we go Away back home!

 

In saying that I also thank you for sharing in my thoughts and writing as we are going along our way as you are a huge part of my blogs heart.

 

Therefore in the things that I am sharing I am also honored to share my books with you too as Happily the FIRST contest for my company with our FREE GIVE AWAY IS OVER. My winner has excitedly been notified and accepted 3 of my AUTOGRAPHED BOOKS as her present. BUT, DONT DESPAIR, BECAUSE ANOTHER READER APPRECIATION CONTEST HAS JUST STARTED!

 

Yes the new contest will end the last of August 2014, and the prize will be an autographed copy of my FIRST CHILDRENS BOOK called  "AN ESCAPING PRINCESS AND A RUNAWAY  PRINCE." Remember All readers who previously entered, previewed, and reviewed, my books in the first contest are in this contest too.

 

So, to join them for the rest of the fun next year entering is EASY. Just click on the TOP OF MY BLOG that says READER APPRECIATION to find MY HEART that will take you to more information OR go to my web site from here.

www.circleslegacypublishing.com To find out more information on how you too can join in the fun.

 

To reach me: jjoslin3@att.net

 

To order my books from Amazon:http://amzn.to/1auDxiO

 

To access my web site:www.circleslegacypublishing.com

 

Thank you also for your prayers and support that you are giving me daily. Please know that all of your sweet encouraging words and sweet emails are Uplifting my life, and my writing, as I too am praying for You while going along my Mary way.

Sunday, June 1, 2014

INSIGHT


" Good morning world. In that insightful greeting is it really a good day? And in the goodness or distress that you are feeling going along your way are you blind or seeing? And if you have sight is it just peripheral or is it insightful. Lastly if you are blind are you really seeing more than the rest of us. Yes just how insightful are you?

 

In our life I have found insight to be the one thing we all think we have, yet that we are all missing. Insight is also the one thing (that if we are honest with ourselves) we each need to find and yet like a mirage, insight stays right out of our reach. In that thought I have realized that the blind can see and the rest of us don’t have a clue what we are seeing that is right in front of us.

 

Therefore in the plight of sight or the flight of light that has left our life in the lack of insight.... what are we seeing? And in the insight we are searching for yet that some are lacking, why are there still some out there blind to the beauty in salvation.


 Yes in this perplexing situation, my leading lady leading the way, has always been similarly like you today, as she too is blindly hiding away from her tainted past, compounded by the severe problems she cannot escape from in her present. 

Yes Angelica has always been haunted by the devouring tribulations of time, while fearing yet in faith looking forward to unseen and unknown complications of the future. In that review of what to do and how not to do it, let’s again join my leading lady Angelica as she shares a new quote from my first novel AT CIRCLES BEND as she is saying.


To order my books from Amazon:http://amzn.to/1auDxiO


“In my move from the states I realized I was seeing. Yet lacking the insight that I needed to see I was not sure what that meant. Therefore day after day I was finding myself trapped in an endless desert of mistakes. 

To me in that sight the Arabs resembled turtles, and in the same way, as I too was pushing an embattled sweaty face out of my hard shell wearing their ugly dreary suffocating cultural abaya, I had a terrapin’s hijab head also. So, I felt equally upset for me, looking at the Arab's in their robotic states stuck inside their ignorant censored country, as I had for me trapped in my upside down life.

 

Astutely in that new strange view of an upside down culture through my equal declarations with observations,  I really disliked my situation more, since I too felt censored. Accordingly in that entrapment with nowhere to go I day dreamed a lot, while vehemently looking ahead to better times. 


Therefore in those hours, I endeavored to look onward to a better day when things would be normal. Clearly, however I was just like the turtle that looked forward to winning the race that had fallen short on its face. Plainly in that sprint second as my head threatened to go inside the hard outer shells of my pretense for good, or to explode in my migraine for bad, I had almost given up.

 

Undoubtedly during that time I was unbearably miserable in their arrogant world, and tried hard not to lose even more sleep over it or to misplace anymore sanity concerning my misery. Visibly I struggled equally to keep my hand and head on straight. 


I, however, felt two faced, and living there in Al Croak-bar wanting to be back home  put me in very serious jeopardy as my terrapins head, even though on, had gone back into my shell.

 

Intuitively on the other hand of that insane thought at the far end of the test with that contemplation circulating in my mind, I remembered another time when the cute turtle actually won the race. So I had taken a deep breath, and as yet another day ended I was alive reliving exile rations of the past. 


Yet I had become increasingly unhappy looking ahead to victory, realizing that I was losing, as in our move to old time, camel spitting Saudi Arabia coupled with other impending situations, we each justifiably were futilely struggling with many, difficult  things. Yes losing my sight fearing blindness…. insight  was just one thing that I lost, and was always finding, yet losing again.

So during my days I stayed completely overwhelmed by the marooned lack of understanding that was taunting me and haunting us. Unmistakably I was miserably blindsided by the odd intimidating, surrounding poor foreign communication, with challenges assigned, and the country’s absurd Arabic culture. 


Yes the whole international move exhausted me as I was unable to cope with the suffocating black cultural dress, called an abaya, and the dark semitransparent heavy veil, called a hijab, and niqab veil that I was hiding under and was forced to wear.

 

Therefore upon my arrival to Arabia I instantly regurgitated my current situational position and collectively all the unmanageable food. I furthermore discovered the profound merciless beatings from the screaming dying Saudi sun were unimaginable, and in general, on that abnormal dismantling dismal day when the storms arrived, I was not ready for the lightening. No I had never known if I could survive the tornado.

Yes indeed I realized going through my storms and resulting wastelands, in the sight I had and the insight I was missing, I needed a lot more faith to get through the never-ending day walking in my endless deserts.” Joslin Fitzgerald

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Please know that everything I am humbly writing is in sharing my love for Jesus and Jesus love for you, leading to my witness that is taking you to....

 

Your Prayer of Salvation

 

Dear Jesus, I know I have done bad things in the past, and that I have done bad things today, and that I will continue to do bad things tomorrow as I am going along my way.  Yes that makes me a sinner, just like everyone else in the world every day, with all of the bad things I am doing and saying.

 

So, because I am a sinner I know I need a Savior....

 

Therefore my sins and my unhappiness are why I have come to you today, as I am silently praying, because I want to be eternally happy, and I need to be forever saved.

 

In saying that Jesus, I believe that you were born on Christmas Day.  I believe Jesus, that you lived a perfect life that is written down in the Bible to teach me what is wrong, and show me what is right. And I believe Jesus, in your love for me that you died on the Cross to save me from all of my sins day and night. Yes Jesus I believe you died, and defeated the grave as you arose from the dead on the third day. Yes I believe you are Alive forevermore and that you are living inside my heart and soul eternally night and day!

 

Thus in believing Jesus, you are the Son of God I am asking for your forgiveness for all my sins that I know, and those I do not know that I have committed, including the ones that I will continue to daily wallow in, as I claim in Your Eternal scriptural promise in the name of the Father, Son and Holy Spirit that I am now going to heaven.

 

Yes I claim in my new faith this very Minute that I am saved, because you died for me on the Cross, and in your arising on the third day, I know I  will not go to my endless grave. In that statement that just saved my life Thank you Jesus, I am now whole since the Holy Spirit lives within my soul!

 

Therefore in this prayer I believe that I am born again into heavens sight, and in your Biblical Promise of salvation written in the scriptures I have received everlasting life! Thus as I am asking you to change my blind darkness to guiding light you are forever my Savior, Jesus Christ.

 

Amen

 

Absolutely I pray that you have accepted Jesus Christ as your eternal guiding light, and your Savior today. I know I may never meet you here on earth as we are roaming, but if you truly prayed your prayer, to Jesus requesting forgiveness of your sins, and asking for your salvation you are right now this second saved. And I will see you when we go Away back home!

 

In saying that I also thank you for sharing in my thoughts and writing as we are going along our way as you are a huge part of my blogs heart.

 

Therefore in the things that I am sharing I am also honored to share my books with you too as Happily the FIRST contest for my company with our FREE GIVE AWAY IS OVER. My winner has excitedly been notified and accepted 3 of my AUTOGRAPHED BOOKS as her present. BUT, DONT DESPAIR, BECAUSE ANOTHER READER APPRECIATION CONTEST HAS JUST STARTED!

 

Yes the new contest will end the last of August 2014, and the prize will be an autographed copy of my FIRST CHILDRENS BOOK called  "AN ESCAPING PRINCESS AND A RUNAWAY  PRINCE." Remember All readers who previously entered, previewed, and reviewed, my books in the first contest are in this contest too.

 

So, to join them for the rest of the fun next year entering is EASY. Just click on the TOP OF MY BLOG that says READER APPRECIATION to find MY HEART that will take you to more information OR go to my web site from here.

www.circleslegacypublishing.com To find out more information on how you too can join in the fun.

 

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Thank you also for your prayers and support that you are giving me daily. Please know that all of your sweet encouraging words and sweet emails are Uplifting my life, and my writing, as I too am praying for You while going along my Mary way.