Thursday, May 29, 2014


“Good morning world. In your life have you ever felt like you were a character living in a movie. Have you ever felt like you were puppet or  a pawn. Have you ever felt you were a blank page  in a story. 

Have you ever felt like you were a pawn on a chess board with no move. Have you ever felt like you were a piece of a puzzle that just has not fit in. Have you ever felt like you were a puppet with somebody else pulling the strings. 

Have you ever felt like you were an actor on the stage. Hummm have you ever felt like you were an animal in a cage, and there was no escape. 

And in all of those feelings have you ever felt like you have not known which way you are going, or what you are doing.


In those thoughts please join me for another quote and a look into my first novel called “At Circles Bend” where we will once again find the saga beginning on a D day a world away right after the struggling fledgling couple has married. 

Yes we will join the family of Payne several years later who like puppets and pawns have found themselves abruptly transplanted from America living in the ghettos of Saudi Arabia. Thus as this family full of laughter, love, hope and joy, with the equal amounts of fear, pain,dislike, and tears have already moved  overseas we will appreciate the catastrophic relocation  in their strife, since we too have disastrously moved around in our life’s.  

Yes in the same way as we all have felt and today feel like puppets and pawns, the reader will identify with them as sweet Angelica finds herself disagreeably living behind many different dark veils in her destiny. And in that struggle we will again hear Angelica saying….


“Thus with the plane’s tremendous fall, we had already nervously stepped off the aircraft onto Oz’s uneven cobblestone road in Saudi Arabia. Yes in that rude awakening I immediately found myself unhappily buried underneath the stifling soaring, sandy dunes. 

Visibly I realized that in the dark day hour, even though the sun shone, there was no light coming through the raining sand. Oh no in that dismal discovery, we predictably yet stupidly, and always innocently, had recently taken on the challenges of Arabian life. 

Yes that was why I had just taken a mental day dream out, because I wanted to go back home or anywhere else.


Hence in those decisions mentally running away from Saudi, while physically abiding in the suffocating world of Arabia’s Al Croak-bar, we had already run away from what was left of my homeland and what was left of my mind. 

Surely in that escaping with no exit, like puppets and pawns we were collectively in the empowered process of conquering the bizarre Arabic mountain, or so I hoped.


Yes wide awake wishing I was still dreaming, I had already found myself living on other side of the world with rats the size of cats, while ( my baby ) Coby was eating bugs like they were candy, crawling around on blazing hot concrete with no rugs. 

Needless to say as time had gone on, I hated the word “already” and I was not sure at all that I was up to the challenge of “certainty,” so I slept, dreamed, and reminisced a lot, since I needed to escape.


Sadly, however like a puppet on the stage, or a pawn on a chess board with the Queen  trapped in check Mate ( or was that Stale mate,) I  had not known there was nowhere go. No I had not known that I had left heaven. And in that leaving I had really not known if I could make it living in hell.


Nevertheless, as my faith was tested and simultaneously my faith was growing I promised to try to survive. Of course in my negativity survival seemed unlikely as I was frying to death. 

Yes like a puppet and a pawn as I closed my eyes forcing reality out, while the wild wind-hurled through the apartment I realized that might have been too much of a mess for me to bear or to clean up. 

Therefore, since I was once more succumbing to the dark side of my mind I realized to survive the fight I had to have more faith. Yes to get through the frightening night I needed to go toward the Son-light.” Joslin Fitzgerald


Well that was another random quote from my first novel AT CIRCLES BEND nicely tweaked for my blog. I hope that has enticed you to read the whole book if so please click on the link below to order it. 

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Happily this fictional family of Payne has been uplifting and inspiring many other readers as they have enjoyed the adventures while seeing themselves in this family’s struggles and celebrations.


And saying that I will see you all back here tomorrow.



Your Prayer of Salvation


Dear Jesus, I know I have done bad things in the past, and that I have done bad things today, and that I will continue to do bad things tomorrow as I am going along my way.  Yes that makes me a sinner, just like everyone else in the world every day, with all of the bad things I am doing and saying.


So, because I am a sinner I know I need a Savior....


Therefore my sins and my unhappiness are why I have come to you today, as I am silently praying, because I want to be eternally happy, and I need to be forever saved.


In saying that Jesus, I believe that you were born on Christmas Day.  I believe Jesus, that you lived a perfect life that is written down in the Bible to teach me what is wrong, and show me what is right. And I believe Jesus, in your love for me that you died on the Cross to save me from all of my sins day and night. Yes Jesus I believe you died, and defeated the grave as you arose from the dead on the third day. Yes I believe you are Alive forevermore and that you are living inside my heart and soul eternally night and day!


Thus in believing Jesus, you are the Son of God I am asking for your forgiveness for all my sins that I know, and those I do not know that I have committed, including the ones that I will continue to daily wallow in, as I claim in Your Eternal scriptural promise in the name of the Father, Son and Holy Spirit that I am now going to heaven.


Yes I claim in my new faith this very Minute that I am saved, because you died for me on the Cross, and in your arising on the third day, I know I  will not go to my endless grave. In that statement that just saved my life Thank you Jesus, I am now whole since the Holy Spirit lives within my soul!


Therefore in this prayer I believe that I am born again into heavens sight, and in your Biblical Promise of salvation written in the scriptures I have received everlasting life! Thus as I am asking you to change my blind darkness to guiding light you are forever my Savior, Jesus Christ.




Absolutely I pray that you have accepted Jesus Christ as your eternal guiding light, and your Savior today. I know I may never meet you here on earth as we are roaming, but if you truly prayed your prayer, to Jesus requesting forgiveness of your sins, and asking for your salvation you are right now this second saved. And I will see you when we go Away back home!


In saying that I also thank you for sharing in my thoughts and writing as we are going along our way as you are a huge part of my blogs heart.


Therefore in the things that I am sharing I am also honored to share my books with you too as Happily the FIRST contest for my company with our FREE GIVE AWAY IS OVER. My winner has excitedly been notified and accepted 3 of my AUTOGRAPHED BOOKS as her present. BUT, DONT DESPAIR, BECAUSE ANOTHER READER APPRECIATION CONTEST HAS JUST STARTED!


Yes the new contest will end the last of August 2014, and the prize will be an autographed copy of my FIRST CHILDRENS BOOK called  "AN ESCAPING PRINCESS AND A RUNAWAY  PRINCE." Remember All readers who previously entered, previewed, and reviewed, my books in the first contest are in this contest too.


So, to join them for the rest of the fun next year entering is EASY. Just click on the TOP OF MY BLOG that says READER APPRECIATION to find MY HEART that will take you to more information OR go to my web site from here. To find out more information on how you too can join in the fun.


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Thank you also for your prayers and support that you are giving me daily. Please know that all of your sweet encouraging words and sweet emails are Uplifting my life, and my writing, as I too am praying for You while going along my Mary way.

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